Friendships

Isn't it funny- sometimes you don't mean as much to the person who means a lot to you. And the person who means a lot to you can be so oblivious to everything you're doing to hold on to her, and it cuts like a knife knowing that other people mean more to her than you do.
Letting go is difficult, especially if you have a possessive nature, but maybe you should stop being like Blair Waldorf who has that impulse to control everyone and everything around her. Stop trying to make people love you; if she doesn't see your goodness and what not, then let her go. There may be other people out there dying to take that spot as your best friend.

I really dislike the whole "best friends" label. You feel so pressurised to live up to your role, you keep on second-guessing everything, you expect too much out of people... it's unnecessary stress. I've got a bunch of close friends but I never rank them consciously, at least.

Another thing I dislike- silent visitors. I REFUSE to answer any Formspring questions until I get a decent number. And if it takes 3 years, FINE I'll wait 3 years (unless I cave in and delete my Formspring account).
Okay gonna finish up my history essay and head to school now :)

P.S. I'm writing this post in general, don't pick it apart and analyse it like a literature text. It'll make you confused and frustrated if you can't figure anything out. Besides, I'm hard to figure out. Only my sis knows my thoughts on everyone, perspectives of everything and my dirty little secrets.