Celeste
Dunmanian; 6C22'12
"When I saw you I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew."
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Ok I need to blog now because I just feel like blogging. If I blog the same thing another day, it'd be an awful post because I woudn't have that same feeling/ impulse then. I guess it means that I'm governed by emotions?
Anyway I think I can be a pretty cynical/ bitter/ whiny person. I have a million things I'm bitter about. That I'm socially-awkward, that I'm not the least pretty, that nobody will ever like me (genuine fear, not some lame #foreveralone trend), that I need to work for things in life while some people just get things dropped onto their laps so easily.
Of course I can be sunnily optimistic, but that usually comes after a certain time period of emoing and bringing myself down.
But I had a great day today, and realised I actually have much to be thankful about. Apart from my very caring, supportive family, I have wonderful WONDERFUL friends :)
Had a mini catch-up session with my fave buds in the world during Resonate concert intermission today... was basically bitching about life, but in a light-hearted dramatic way. I love talking to them!
When I reached home exhausted from the concert, I saw 2 little envelopes sitting at my desk. Ripped open the first one (air-flown from London) and smiled to myself while reading a very lengthy letter (which addressed my insecurities) and was reminded that I'm terribly blessed to have a close friend living millions of miles away from me. Opened the Christmas letter and was thankful that I was remembered.
Then I read a note which said that I have a "one of a kind personality". ME! ONE OF A KIND! I was like "aw shucks really?" before doing a happy dance in my room.
The purpose of this is not to show off or anything, but just to remind myself that I should be perfectly content because I'm blessed with many friends who will be there for me. Friends who know what I like, know my insecurities, constantly humour me...
I thought I'd reached my threshold for making close friends from school at the start of this year, since after 4 years of being with the same people I'd have made all the possible close friends... but nuh-uh this year I've made even more new close friends and rekindled old friendships.
And when you're reading this and you're someone I'm not close to (I assume only close/ at least decent friends would bother reading this)... talk to me. God knows I read other blogs too and I just wish I could talk to them just to know them better but I don't know how to.
That's what a cbox is for, but I get only like 1 proper comment a month but 3 spammers a day, so I decided to do away with it. Maybe I should create a Formspring for people who wanna talk to me... but it'll be super embarrassing if I get 10 questions a year. Decisions decisions.
Anyway I think I can be a pretty cynical/ bitter/ whiny person. I have a million things I'm bitter about. That I'm socially-awkward, that I'm not the least pretty, that nobody will ever like me (genuine fear, not some lame #foreveralone trend), that I need to work for things in life while some people just get things dropped onto their laps so easily.
Of course I can be sunnily optimistic, but that usually comes after a certain time period of emoing and bringing myself down.
But I had a great day today, and realised I actually have much to be thankful about. Apart from my very caring, supportive family, I have wonderful WONDERFUL friends :)
Had a mini catch-up session with my fave buds in the world during Resonate concert intermission today... was basically bitching about life, but in a light-hearted dramatic way. I love talking to them!
When I reached home exhausted from the concert, I saw 2 little envelopes sitting at my desk. Ripped open the first one (air-flown from London) and smiled to myself while reading a very lengthy letter (which addressed my insecurities) and was reminded that I'm terribly blessed to have a close friend living millions of miles away from me. Opened the Christmas letter and was thankful that I was remembered.
Then I read a note which said that I have a "one of a kind personality". ME! ONE OF A KIND! I was like "aw shucks really?" before doing a happy dance in my room.
The purpose of this is not to show off or anything, but just to remind myself that I should be perfectly content because I'm blessed with many friends who will be there for me. Friends who know what I like, know my insecurities, constantly humour me...
I thought I'd reached my threshold for making close friends from school at the start of this year, since after 4 years of being with the same people I'd have made all the possible close friends... but nuh-uh this year I've made even more new close friends and rekindled old friendships.
And when you're reading this and you're someone I'm not close to (I assume only close/ at least decent friends would bother reading this)... talk to me. God knows I read other blogs too and I just wish I could talk to them just to know them better but I don't know how to.
That's what a cbox is for, but I get only like 1 proper comment a month but 3 spammers a day, so I decided to do away with it. Maybe I should create a Formspring for people who wanna talk to me... but it'll be super embarrassing if I get 10 questions a year. Decisions decisions.